2009-02-28

jump up, scream, and jump down.

ok. fine since lulu blogged about it d. heh.

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO BRATS!!!

haha.

so the people i called when i got the news was lulu and briana. i swear lulu was screaming, probably shocking her neighbours. (they probably thought somebody was being murdered). and briana was like im so proud of you im so proud of you. heh.

honestly, i’m scared out of my wits at the prospect of going to a 4 day camp with nobody i know there. but i’m excited too, i get to meet new people. =p.

ok, now since you know bout the news, aren’t you gonna congratulate me? =p

and if you don’t know what BRATs is, start reading the STAR newspaper. or you can google it too.

i gotta go try and finish my homework now. *crosses fingers*

xoxo

joanna

positive-ness

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so some people were saying that when u keep chanting positive things that you want to happen and think will happen. it’ll happen.

heh.

i will study and get straight A’s. i

will study and get straight A’s.

i will study and get straight A’s.

let’s see whether it works. on to a happier note. =p. i’m not gonna tell you yet. wait until the hols are over then i’ll share the happy news with you ( news bout me la =p ). but some people already know bout it of course. the rest of you will just have to wet your pants with suspense.

omg though, i can’t believe we’re gonna start like the 4th bb book. never thought it would last that long, but i’m so glad it still lasts. love you guys banyak.

xoxo

joanna

2009-02-25

bread, water and willpower

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today’s Ash Wednesday. i decided i’d try the whole bread and water fast for today. heh, was it tough.

didn’t start off to bad considering i barely had anything to eat the night before. drank water to try and hold off the hunger pangs for as long as possible. then came recess, i came prepared. i had packed two pieces of plain wholemeal bread to sustain me until lunch at least. i started nibbling at it, determined not to break the fast just yet. i took my time eating it, eventually hiding out in the ed board room to load my pics and be far away from the delicious aroma of food just around the corner from the room. i was down to about half of the second piece when the bell rang. i was tempted to just scarf down the rest of the bread  but then i knew i would feel the hunger more. i went back to class, only to be greeted by the aroma of nuggets coming from kong’s drawer. i started cursing under my breath, trying to find things to distract myself. so school went on… until the last bell. i hurried to the bus stop to wait for my mum. finally she came, and we went to mid valley for the jusco member’s day. i was greeted full force by delicious smells coming from everyway around me when i stepped into the mall. but yet i was determined, i headed to jusco and bought myself a sandwich, glancing wishfully at the sushi the whole time. ahh, if only. i took my time with it, determined to make it last until dinner. and last me it did. by the time i came home, i still didn’t feel the hunger. then i had dinner with my grandma, having to take off bones from the fish for my grandma, i was sorely tempted to eat the noodles too. but i was determined. i was deciding between what kind of bread to eat when my mum scolded me. telling me to have at least a square meal. in the end, i had the noodles. but until now, i have not once touched something i would have normally eaten by now.

i am really proud with myself. =)

xoxo

joanna

 

P/S yes yes, lots of words i know. haha.

2009-02-23

wishful thinking.

a catch phrase normally used to express want in something that may not seem possible.

i’m going through that at the moment. wishfully thinking that my homework would finish itself on its own, when i go to sleep the pages would be empty, magically when i wake up they would be full with my handwriting ; wishfully thinking that all the work that i need to study for exam would march itself into my brain and take shelter there, bolstering my other knowledge, helping me achieve acceptable results for my peers and most importantly, myself ; wishfully thinking that the work and stress that comes with being club president would magically disappear, taking away that perpetual frown that seems to line my forehead nowadays. yes, all wishful thinking, ain’t it?

wishful thinking for me doesn’t come true, never has, never will. so i’m always stressed, being a little bit crazy and hyper at times will be a norm after a while. so people, you just have to put up with it until spm is over, then i’ll be back to my normal ‘happy’ self. heh.

xoxo

joanna

2009-02-22

this seriously good e-mail that i got.

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,

I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.

His name was Kyle.

It looked like he was carrying all of his books.

I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?

He must really be a nerd.'

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.

They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.

His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him...

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.

As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks.'

They really should get lives.

' He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!'

There was a big smile on his face.

It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.

As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before..

He said he had gone to private school before now.

I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.

We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.

He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.

I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends

He said yes.

We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.

I stopped him and said, 'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!

' He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends..

When we were seniors we began to think about college.

Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.

I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.

He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship..

Kyle was valedictorian of our class.

I teased him all the time about being a nerd.

He had to prepare a speech for graduation.

I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak

Graduation day, I saw Kyle.

He looked great.

He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.

He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.

He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.

Boy, sometimes I was jealous!

Today was one of those days.

I could see that he was nervous about his speech.

So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!'

He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.

' Thanks,' he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends.... I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story.'

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.

He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.

He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

'Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable..'

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.

Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions..

With one small gesture you can change a person's life.

For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.

Look for God in others.

xoxo

joanna

my baby.

 

my new baby.

ain’t he pretty?

yes, it’s a he.

haha, be prepared for a bimbo post if you wanna continue reading.

 

he’s so pretty. or handsome as mei yih likes to put it.

somemore he has the sims in it. yeah i kid you not.

im like already addicted to the sims. =s.

supposed to be studying but end up playing games. luckilt got battery life. otherwise i wouldn’t be able to stop. lol.

actually i tak da mood to elaborate. my first handphone that i used my own money to buy with k. be proud for me, as slug is. xD. kidding.

erm… don’t know what else to say.

oh yeah. he has a name. it’s for me and meiyih and briana to know and for you to find out. =p

 

xoxo

joanna

2009-02-20

plurk

is being very irritating as i can’t update it cause my page is taking so long to load. so irritating la.

on to a happier note. i got mua new baby.

gonna dedicate a post to it later la. maybe like after exams k. cause i gotta study d. so i won’t update for a while. =p

 

xoxo

joanna

2009-02-17

tired sial.

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silver lining in the clouds.

 

nothing to say.

just hopelessly dissappointed.

been facing a lot of challenges lately, it’s taking all of my willpower and strength to stop from bursting in tears at the moment.

i want things to change, to become better. but wanting is not the same as getting it is it… so i guess ill call it very wishful thinking.

wishful thinking.. only a miracle might be able to overcome it. and miracles are as dry as rain in a drought at the moment.

i’m becoming melancholy, starting to hide in my own shell lately, i hate feeling this way.

xoxo

joanna

ugh.. got some mosquitoes somewhere irritating the hell out of me. heh, i’m being cryptic aren’t i? i wanna keep the peace… better me knowing i am a better person than she is than i lose my cool and rep at the same time. (not bring perasan. =p )

2009-02-16

bananian productions

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valentine’s day card. 

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christmas card.

briana is da bomb. =p

the above cards were made entirely by her.

lol, yes la i love u la.

very cantik right?.. dontcha think she should start her own company or something. =p

so i’m using windows live writer for the first time. hahah. still so not used to it but omg its so fast. o.0

i should be sleeping now cause its now 12.30 and there’s school tomorrow.

so bye bye. =)

xoxo

joanna

2009-02-11

The post

the inevitable is closing in again.
like the years before, i will be spending it on my own.
it's not that i don't have friends who asked me to go out,
it's just become a tradition with me to spend it alone nowadays.
=p

yeah, im gonna emo
hahah
don't care la
i haven't posted an emo post for a very long time k.
so let me be
=p

having friend problems again
the misconceptions and all.
yeah, it's making me depressed..
but at least i feel better in class when all the dao gei people around me make me laugh.
=p

yeah... the friend thing..
haih..
i tak da best friend la.
so yeah... jangan cakap tentang tu lagi.

the coming exams are affecting my mood.
making me sad and depressed.
making me feel lonely too.
don't know why..

ok so back to v-day right.
got my list mostly done. haha
if i dun give you anything also i love you la k. =p

xoxo
joanna

2009-02-10

23 more..

oh the number 23 is haunting my dreams nowadays.
it would flash right before my eyes in my sleep causing me to break out in a sheen of sweat which causes me to wake up in the middle of the night.

ok i'm kidding. =p
i sleep like a pig, or a log.
erm, well the number 23 is significant today because.
drumroll!!

there are only 23 more days to exams
*shock*
*horror*
*start trembling and shaking in fear*

well, the 23 doesn't plus today nor does it plus the 6th.
ok. 23 more days is erm 552 more hours to exams.
if average we sleep 7 hours a day.
391 hours left.
then consider mealtimes. let's say 2 hours a day.
345 hours left.
then consider showering etc about 2 hours a day?
299 hours
then erm.. school.. 6 hours a day, 5 days a week.
209 hours.
then erm tuition, average 2 hours a day?
163 hours.
so maybe relaxing a day 1 hour?
140 more hours to exams

omg
there's only 140 more hours to exams. not to mention i didn't add all the co-co hours and stuff.
=s
imma go hyperventilate now.

xoxo
joanna

2009-02-09

of valentine's and cards

hey people.
so i do realise a lot of people read this.
(so not being perasan =p)
so can u like leave comments
haha
cause my cbox very dead la.
somemore got some weird freako left two msg there.
o.0

hmmm
k so i've roughly finish the valentine's day stuff.
of course valentines is singles day this year
=)
imma gonna spend it with my friends some way or the other
so far got 3 invites d
now i gotta decide which one to go for
o.0

hm..
don't know what to say d la
nowadays blogging has been boring
omg
that rhymes
=))

xoxo
joanna

hope is a waking dream - aristotle.

2009-02-07

random tag

just a random tag from briana's blog.

1.Put your music player on shuffle.
2.Press forward for each question.
3.Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
No cheating.

How are you feeling today?
all again for you - we the kings (erm... i'd jump frnces for you? =p)

Will you get far in life?
don't speak liar - we the kings (hahah. guess not)

What is your best friend's theme song?
4ever - the veronicas ( omg. same song as briana. freakkkkaaaaiiiii)

What is the story of your life?
when i'm gone - 3 doors down ( hahha, the story is when i'm gone haha)

What was high school like?
still in love - dawn angelique (hahah, guess i still love high school)

How can you get ahead in life?
love games - lady gaga ( hahah, i can get ahead by playing love games? lol)

What's the best thing about your friends?
if i could be like that - 3 doors down ( awwww)

Describe your grandparents.
here without you - 3 doors down ( heh, grandma in the next room)

How's your life going?
best i ever had - vertical horizon ( you mean i had a life before this? o.0 reborn?!)

What song will they play at your funeral?
secret valentine - we the kings ( hahahha, ill have a valentine for my funeral, great)

Will you have a happy life?
love story - taylor swift ( guess so? o.0)

What do your friends really think of you?
fearless - taylor swift ( omg so coool. =p)

Do people secretly lust after you?.
poker face - lady gaga ( hahahah. guess so? o.0)

How can you make yourself happy?
money honey - lady gaga( ooooo, money money money... )

What should you do with your life?
disco heaven - lady gaga ( have a disco? o.0)

Will you ever have children?
this love - the veronicas ( guess ill love them. =p)

What song would you strip to?
just dance - lady gaga ( o.0... not bad i guess. )

What does your mum think of you?
i love you anyway - boyzone ( omg.. so true so true)

What is your deep, dark secret?
you're a god - vertical horizon ( omfg, hahahahhah!!)

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
next plane home - daniel powter ( bye bye bye=p)

What's your personality like?
angels - enya ( im like an angel *winks*)

What song will be played at your wedding?
perfect enemy - TATU. (wokayyyy)

hahah...
i think my shuffle got prob though, some of the artists repeated quite a few times.

xoxo
joanna

2009-02-06

sarcasm

today was the entrance test for ed board.

there was a sign on the door.

i quote

this room is for the purpose of the ed board test,
intruders will be shot,
if you survive,
you will be shot again.

=p...
funny righttt?... admit it. =p...

xoxo
joanna

2009-02-04

v day pressies

so i've been starting on my valentine's day presents
the list is incomplete as i can't decide who to give to.
so this year i'm just going to bake cupcakes
and if i love you i give you one. =p


' you stutter my heart,
make it lose a beat'

xoxo
joanna

FEB babiessssss. =)

18th
por-por, Shirley

22nd
Christopher

24th
Jared

25th
Zulynn


happy early birthday!!!
=)

xoxo
joanna

PluRk!

plurk!. =)

xoxo
joanna

2009-02-01

CNY 09'

so i'm too lazy to upload the rest of the pics
=p
xoxo
joanna

resisting temptation..

new layout.
was bored.

nyways,
CNY pics to come soon.
too lazy at the moment
=)

xoxo
joanna