tired...

these few days just feel so tired everyday... i also do not know why... anywayz... life is ok i guess... not really any excitement... just had easter rally yesterday... and then this morning went to the market in SS17... it was fun i guess... lol... i bought a pair of pants cause they looked good... so later im going to erm... i'm also not sure what its called... but i don't know anybody there except MY... so we'll see what happens la... oh yeah... i cut my hair... haihz... its like really short now ah... damn saddening... =.=...
and bout the banana thing (change the name la)
eveybody has their own opinions about it... but i think everybody should just cool off and forget it... stop with the sorry and the flaming and everything... just forget the entire thing ever happened... and it's not like you guys will have to talk to each other again... don't talk then don't talk la... i know the ppl involved still want this to go on... or may keep telling other people they don't want this to go on but secretly want it... just forget the whole thing... let the past be the past...
(no offence to anybody) {im gonna put that sentence in all my posts from now on}

p/s i can use my msn again!!!
p/p/s haihz... tomorrow need to wake up early for the malay mail big walk...
p/p/p/s haihz... maybe i'll go sleep... hmm..
p/p/p/p/s maybe i'm giving away one of my dogs... MAYBE

<3 ™
joanna

speechless

haihz... i deno what to post d la... maybe i should start over a new blog and start over a new record so i don need to flame anybody... hmm...
im considering quitting debating too... it kinda sucks... lol...
oh i saw avril lavigne's album logo... haha... i know im outdated la... its like a heart with the skull bones... so damn nice wei... maybe i'll copy it... haha... kidding... but its reli nice... go c if you haven't... lol...
i deno wad to write d la... haha... lateerrrrrrr

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joanna

p/s... we need to just sit down and talk it out...

life sucks...

life sucks. i just feel so depressed for no reason at all. maybe i have a few reasons but compared to the problems that i hear bout from other people. i don't really think my problems are that big...
i feel like bursting. i just keep everything to myself nowadays. whenever somebody is talking to me i'll be like, yeah, ok, whatever or i'll answer properly la. but then it would be total silence cause i don't know what to say and i just start thinking. i can't help it. i can't help keeping everything to myself. i know i have best friends to trust and things like that, but i still can't tell them this stuff, i don't know how to say it out loud, so guys, you need to be patient with me these few weeks kay.
and as Sue Ann loves to say i hate bloody bitches and their bitchiness. if you wanna be a bitch, do it somewhere else where it is appreciated, not in front of me. and your not only a bitch, your a fake. don't think i don't know. you just do whatever everybody else is doing to fit in. it's so damn obvious. so you, and your other bitchy friend can just go die.
i really didn't wanna start flaming anyone in my blog at first. but you have just ruined my perectly good record of only writing good things in my blog. and i'm also pissed about that.
i feel like crying. sorry for being so emo today.

<3
joanna.

haihz...

me so boredddd... ugghhhhhh... i finish my drawing d... and now i have no more inspiration... ughhhhhh... i want something to do la... or someone to talk to... ughhhhh... ughhhhh... ughhhhh...

oh yeah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUISE!!
hope you enjoyed it... lol...

bbbbooorrreeeddd ahhh...
my schedule next week damn busy la... haihz

monday
morning - school
afternoon - debating?!

tuesday
morning - school
afternoon - tuition
night - tuition

wednesday
morning - school
afternoon - tuition

thursday
morning - school
afternoon - violin

friday
morning - school
noon - ed board / css meeting?!?!

saturday
morning - tennis
night - mass

sunday
morning - bible studies and confirmation

haihz... i'm tired... but i don't feel like sleeping... weird eh... aiya... i better try and go to sleep la... lol... byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

<3
joanna...

my other cousin...

my cousin ... cute horh... lol...

my cousins came up last weekend for like two days... we had fun... lol...

it was like... playing carroms everyday... which can be bad but improved my aiming skills... haha

we also watched a movie together and ended up laughing like shit..

and then at night cause megan wanted to sleep with me and micheal wanted to sleep with megan, we joined the two beds together and sleep three together.... haha... very funny cause i couldn't get up in the morning... so every few minutes they would come into the room and try to wake me up... lol... in the end... i finally managed... haha...

and then we went out for dim sum the next day... and i had some

REALLY GOOD LO MAI GAI ( for sue ann xD)

and dim sum lo... haha... we ate at Oriental at Jaya... erm... not sure wad section lol...

and then they went home on Sunday afternoon... it was fun with the here... even though they have a strange sense of what is creepy and what isn't...

im gonna miss them... haihz... but i think they're coming next holiday... yippeee...

<3

joanna

projects and results...

heyyy...
my results have finally come back in my report card... anyway... my mum's warning was that the c's have to beome b's and the b's have to become a's... and well, the a's stay as a's lo... haha... but i only have one a after all... haha... so nothing much has happened lately... its been soooooo boring... but i've been busy la... haha... i don't know why when im busy i seem to be more cheerful le... haha... so i have erm... my sivik, geo and sejarah project to finish... geo i did a bit d... need to do the soal selidik which i will be doing with Louise... and then sejarah i can't decide between chinese marriages or catholic marriages... lol... friendster is as slow as usual... but i know it will be even slower on the desktop so i'm not really complaining... you guys know superman returns that show right?... yesterday was the first time i watched it even though its like one year old... haha... so swt-ed right... i better get back to my projects la..
before that, en.lim's period today got me thinking about what i should be when i grow up... i have no idea whatsoever... if only i were rich then i wouldn't need to worry horh... lol...
but i'm thinking something along the lines of lawyer or stuff... but that would mean tons of working hours... not to mention the people that you might meet along the way may not be good... and this country'slegal system isn't so good as well... so i don't know la... haha...

<3
joanna

my kneeeee... PG 13

ahhhhhhh... its bleedin... im dyin... dyin... dyin!!!!...

lol... not so dramatic la... haha... it just bloddy hurt when i put the alcohol swab lo... and then the black black stuff cannot wash off one... i don know why... haha... i know its gross... even my cousin standing behind me now is screaming

"its so grossss!!!! so gross!!! GROSS!!! "

haha... so yea... anywayz... the amazing race thingy was fun... hmm... you think i lost any weight ah... haha... but i haven't gotten any darker lo... anywayz... my resolution from now on is to get fitter... wakaka... i seriously suck at running la... especially since we pratically had to try and catch up with khoo the whole time... so yeah... haha...

<3

joanna

my birthday list...

every year i face the same problem during my birthday that is everybody keeps asking me what i want... haha... so i have decided to make my list... and then u guys just choose la... its not really expensive... lol...

~ fall out boy's album - infinity on high
~ a new hp... ahah... kiddin..
~ a Roxy bag =p
~ a stuffed toy... =o)
~ a card
~ a reload card
~ things to hang on my hp
~ storybooks... preferably fantasy ones la... i love dragons... haha
~ be creative la... haha...

got to go la... byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

<3
joanna...

unpredictable...

im so sorry u guys that i haven't updated for so long... i've just been busy and well lazy... haha... anyway... my stupid windows live messenger won sign me in... its like the two people keep going round and round and round... bluek... and i miss chatting online... so well... my com sucks... haihz... i think it needs to be reformatted le... but i don't know how la.. and even if i did im scared i'll mess something up cause now i don't have my brother to blame if something goes wrong... anywayz... i'm so bored... i feel so depressed le... my life sucks... haihz... heres why
- i have a very high phone bill this month
- my results sucked
- the guy of my dreams isn't the guy of my dreams
- i can't stop eating
- it's so bloody hot
- i'm being forced to do things that i don't like and am doing them for the sake of doing them
- i feel so isolated and alone
- i know i have great friends and should be grateful but i still feel depressed
- my msn won't sign me in
- my com sucks
- my weight sucks
-haihz... everything sucks
- i've started swearing so much!!! >.<
i know i sound like a whinner and should be grateful for everything that i have... but i just can't help the feeling you know... and i have a bz schedule next week... haihz... i feel light-headed just thinking bout it... below... its the activities that i have after school..
monday - basketball/debating?!?!
tuesday - mary chan(afternoon), pn. bibi (night)
wednesday - mary chan
thursday - violin
friday - not sure yet... lol...
theres still some other stuff that i forgot d... but i just feel so tense... nowadays i wake up in the morning thinking of the things that i should do that day... its not normal... i just don't know why i'm getting to be so over the edge... i feel like i could snap at any moement and just start screaming my head off... i just know its gonna happen one of these days... i've never had a brakedown in my whole entire life and i don't really mean to start now... i think im so tense because of the PMR... if thats true... why does everybody else look so realaxed and happy all the time... while i'm so depressed inside and smiling outside...
i feel like rhyming now... haha... so random... haihz..

word of the day
gi-gi-gantic (invented by Briana and Louise)

song of the day
if i had a hammer
(lol... don't ask... download it and see... haha)

i feel so frustrated la!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

p/s... i hope i pass ed board!!... and debating!!! and get to help with the rumah hijau thing!!! and the basketball is sucessful!!! pray for me!!

<3
joanna...