bloody hell

i'm having a bloody depressed day today.
~ failed ed board again.
~friends deserting me like mad. i've got so much time to think now. what do you think, my latest theory is that my friends were only friends with me cause they wanted to use me. well, all the signs are pointing there at any rate.
~bloody family pressuring me to join this join that. they're like " you need a uniforn body, bla bla bla" not like its my bloody fault right. everybody keeps failing me. i really feel so useless now.
~i've lost all my confidence. get it. so i get bulldozed over easily.

P.S. i don't care if i offend anybody in this post k. it's your bloody fault anyway, bitch.
P.P.S i'm having suicidal thoughts. you may find me dead one day. =)

xoxo
joanna