damn shit wei...

i was having a perfectly happy day today, except for the sejarah exam which totally sucked. and then i had to go and read a certain blog. ugh. it's not like it was takling bad about me, but it was bout what the people from the blog did without me or without even telling me. i guess i'm so ignorant i thought we were best friends. i guess i was wrong. you can't even invite me for something but can somehow invite someone of whom you've only known for about a year.

people are probably gonna say. oh, joanna, don't take it too personally, it's just some stupid thing that they didn't invite you for. but i feel like we're growing apart as friends. we're not as close as we used to be. i don't know la. i guess i'm being too sensitive. but i can't help it when i know the fact that you're moving on and leaving me in the dust. it's sad cause i thought we could share everything.

xoxo
joanna

'it's perfectly safe to stand nowhere'

gnirob...

i feel bored and depressed today... i have no idea why... i just came back from PD a few hours ago... this is the interesting stuff that happened...

-played basketball and got 3 blisters at the end of it
-played 'chor dai di' and won once
-my bro's frens couldn't stop singing horribly but very funnily... hehe... especially beautiful girls
-watched 300 halfway then fell asleep
-watched as my bro's frens tried to get the attention of some other girls on camp
-gap zhai =p
-paintball... whheeeee
-go kart... i suck at driving la... haha
-homeeeeeeeeeee

haha... tis' was a lot of fun... haha... welll then we had to make our way back home... bluek... i kept sms-ing ppl this whole trip and now i have no more credit... haha... great huh?
anyway... back to the bored and depressed part...

i feel like nobody cares about me even though i have such great friends when i need them...

i feel like i'm being left behind while everybody is moving forward...

i feel like i'm gonna breakdown one day and just cry and cry and cry..

i feel like my world is crashing down around me...

i feel like eveyrbody is moving on while i'm left behind to pick up their pieces...

i feel like i can't talk when i want to but talk when i dun want to...

i feel trapped in this world of only a circle...

i feel like eveyrbody only wants to look for the bad in me and not the good anymore...

i feel like my world is ending and yet nobody has noticed...

i like to think a lot on my own now... it sounds sad and boring.. but i can't help it... sometimes on the way up the long road that seperates me from my mums car, i suddenly slow down and start thinking... WHAT IF? what if this happened? what if that didn't happen? what if i lose a friend? what if i die the next day and the guy i like doesn't even know that i liked him? what if i die and my friends are left with sadness? what if the world ends? what if my parents suddenly get sick? what if my dad loses his job..... it's just too many what if's.... i feel like i can't control it anymore... i cry more often than i used to... suddenly i'll just start crying for no reason at all... even somebody asked me 'why lately your so emotional, joanna?' i have no idea... haihz... im boring you with tis post... so now i'll go and dwell in my thoughts...

xoxo
joanna

for the record, i failed ed board so stop askin me whether i failed or passed...

P.s try and figure out what the title means... =p

a chicken rice-y post

you know what? Ipoh Chicken Rice is like soooo expensive... hmm... i think a lot of people already know that... but me, being the one who doesn't want to spend lunch on her own, loves to ask people what to eat for lunch before the final bell rings, and the choice is always Kanna or Chicken rice?... haha... it's so lifeless... lol... and since i'm kinda sick of Indian food and have heard really bad rumours about them from a few people(ask me if you wanna know =p)... always say chicken rice nowadays... haha... so i'll be arguing with my friends in the end... Ipoh or Satellite?... and i think i'm too big of a sucker cause i always end up sitting in the air-conditioned area of Ipoh Chicken Rice.. haha... but the helpings are quite small and damn expensive you know... its like, a little bit of chicken and rice... which isn't filling enough for a chubby person like me so i normally end up complaining about how i'm still hungry to innocent bystanders like Louise today... haha... i think i complain too much?... haha... but back to the point. Ipoh Chicken Rice is expensive... (delicious)... full of chemicals that are bad for erm... parts of the body?... unecesarry when we can buy a plate of chicken rice somewhere else cheaper with more chicken... i mean whats the point of calling it chicken rice if you're gonna give so much more rice than chicken? hmm... and i wasted RM3.50 on that plate of chicken rice... and you know what the funny thing at the end of the day was?... i forgot that i told my mum i was eating lunch at home... and ironically when i went home... what did i find for lunch... NGA POH CHICKEN RICE...

P.S i have just wasted 5 minutes of your time while you read this post... =p...


xoxo
joanna

picturesss

me and mum
me and gradma

me and dad

she's looking at uuu...

rambutanns

have a break... ahha

my mum couldn't decide which cake...

snail's and ducky's artwork...

henna

xoxo

joanna

Smile. your on candid caameeraaaaa...

today nothing really interesting happened... except the moment when they 'kai bao' Khoo... haha... damn swt la... and the gf smiling like shit there somemore... lol...
anyway

happy early birthday khoo!!...

haha... im not gonna give u a pressie so thats all you'll get...
other than that, the debate was today... i was reserve cause every sentence that comes out of my mouth is punctusted by my coughing... but we won!! ... wakaka... briana and louise and khoo are the best... lol... evern though it was their first time but they were totally good... and another happy thing is all the semi teams are form threes... haha... not bad... lol... our next topic is like... khoo's fav thing... haha... if you wanna noe what it is... ask either one of us lo... lol...
moving on, i had an afternoon nap... now feel damn hyper... haha... first thing i did was take out my hp and start sending random messages to people... lol... and i'm sad to say out of the ten messages i only got back two replies... dissapointed la... but whatever la... didn't expect much... hmmm... what else..
nothing i think... i watched james bond just now... was supposed to study but my lampu all of a sudden kaput la... so what to do... sit in the living room also can't help it but watch what my dad is watching right... haha..
i don't know what to write d... lately lazy to change the colour of my fonts and stuff... haha...

xoxo
joanna

1,2.3!!

i reached 123 posts d... wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
haha... i'm hyper cause i had my medicine... which is like lemsip... if you don't know what it is... it's lemon+panadol.. haha... and my mum gave me the adult version.. so i'm really hyper right now... haha
hmm... i need to start studying... lol... 2 1/2 more weeks to trial leh... howwww?... lol
i'm starting to get really paranoid nowadays... about certain stuff... don't ask me... haha
and i'm still sick after 3 weeks... lol... don't ask me why...

ok... that's the update... haha

xoxo
joanna

life is short... enjoy it...

i've just realised something... life is so so so short le...
imagine...
10 minutes in one hour is already 1/6 of an hour
10 hours in one day is already 41.4% of one day
aiya... forget the statistics... just think of it this way... on average, you take at least 2-3 hours to eat... 8 hours to sleep... 1-2 hours getting dressed... 1-2 hours on the road... 6-7 hours in school... so how much time do you have left a day? ( on a weekday)
about... 4-5 hours left a day... surprising right? i was quite surprised too when i did the math... but its actually quite refreshing thinking about it... thinking about what i usually do in those few precious hours... and thinking that i've wasted my time on mindless things...
almost half of this year is gone... and the other half is going fast too... while we go on with our busy lives... i cant help thinking... what have i done today that was meaningful? what have i done today for a friend or even an enemy?...
i know the answer to that for myself... but what about the rest of you?... just think about that when you spend hours siting in front of the tv or playing endless games...

xoxo
joanna

so baby, i will wait for you... elliot yamin

single guys...

i was watching Oprah after school today, and guess what todays topic was...

*drumroll*

love...

lol... i think Oprah loves to talk about love la... this time it was how to stay in a relationship and stuff like that... so what i learned from watching it was...
- you gotta feel good about yourself to be able to stay in a relationship
- you gotta give out the good vibes to get good guys... haha... you know what i mean right...
- you gotta be positive just think of life in a more positive way

haha... it was kinda funny at the end... cause Oprah says that too many women cmplain they cant find the perfect guy... so Oprah and her 'team' looked for tons of single men... lol... they're all available at Oprah.com... haha...

i don't know why im feeling depressed today la... haihz... i guess im just depressed that the guy i like is like off limits la... in the sense that its a one-sided like relationship... u get what i mean right... why can't the perfect guy exist leh?
a guy who is always there for you... worries about you 24/7... always knows the right things to say at the right times... a guy who can still be there for you even though he has left this face of the earth... just a guy that you can always get along with and your family can get along with too... a guy who has the guts to say i like you instead of hide behind his friends...

lol.. i expect too much in life i guess... haha...

'i want you to want me' elvis castello (why can't life be as simple as an old retro pop song)

xoxo
joanna...

dissapointing...

haha... i haven't updated for damn long d (according to my standards la)
well, these are the highlights of the things that have happened lately...

my birthday passed, i love and thanks everybody!!! haha. i got like tons of presents and am really grateful. i'll post pics of them later la... haha too lazy now le.

family day was last sunday. it was fun. haha. started off giving weidly shaped balloons to lil' kids. and then debbie and louise found me so we went around. all three of us did the henna thingy. haha. i hope it'll last for a longer time. haha. i ate like damn lot of food le. =.=. i bought some stuff too. haha. hmmm, thats about it i think.

i stayed overnight at church from friday to saturday le. like until 4 am in the morning. haha. pretty cool. damn lotta people came to gove testimonies and stuff. i saw pointblanc and the nikki girl from malaysian idol!!!! so totally cool. haha. they're catholics by the way thats why they came to give testimonies le. and then since the world youth day is being held in sydney this yr, the organisers decided to teac us some australian slang. haha. so now my bro is going around trying to immintate an australian. haha.

the whole week was pretty boring actually. damn lotta relief le. so can sleep/study. haha. butsince i cant sleep in class for some strange reason, i ended uo studyin form 1 science. haha. a bit pathetic right, but whatever.

PMR is in like 76 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sshhhhhheeeetttttttt...

xoxo
joanna

muscles...

btw... i was talking with a few people who have the same opinion about this...

guys with reli reli reli huge muscles are ugly! lol... one example is how arnold used to be... as in the guy form terminator... haha

xoxo
joanna