lonely

contrast - dead and alive flowers

emo right now.

nobody to talk to.

blogger pissing me off.

merdeka pics take frickin long to load.

so will not load.

maybe next post.

my frickin back is killing me

i don't know why

my friends are too busy with other stuff to talk to me.

ill talk to myself

and cry and cry and cry again

to take away the emo-ness

so i can be happy and smiley tomorrow

but i highly doubt that would happen

i feel so awkward

i hate my life

why do i feel like this

i think too much

how to not stop thinking to much

it all started when my friends dumped me

in the past

the present

and probably the future

i'm just callafare to them

cause i'm too naiice that people use me easily

so from now on

you want somehting

you get it yourself

hmph

xoxo

joanna

P.S. still can't get over my depressing birthday. admittedly i got great presents, but all i wanted was to spend time with you guys. i wanted my birthday to be celebrated, not just for the presents. i wanted my sweet 16 to actually mean something. but now its just on the list of one my bad birthdays. guess i should be expecting that from now on. and no, i'm not a pesseimist. i just think too much remember

P.P.S. i'm just frickin sick of life and people treating me like crap under their shoes.