watching time pass me by...

i know exams are over and everything. but i deserve to treat myself with a morbid post don't you think. if you don't agree you might as well not read this post.
welll, today was the last day of exams. i went home, ate then decided to start on the new book that i had borrowed. where rainbows end by cecilia ahern. i can't help feeling that she really has the knack of making me feel depressed after reading her books. die hard romantic novel fans may not agree with me, arguing that her books are a mix of romance and comedy. well, i totally disagree.
this book is about two childhood friends. the whole book is in letters and emails, not written from a narrative point of view. making me think, when was the last time i actually wrote and email or letter to a friend or family member. i used to loveeeeee writing letters you know, i still have this drawer full of writing stationary that i used to treasure. instead of looking at clothes, i looked at stationary. a little hard to believe but i loved to write. now, i rely on short snatches of conversations from people. the only people i actually share conversations about my life are the people i spend recess with, the people i go to tuition with, the people i walk out of school with. but now i've come to realise. it's all been very shallow conversations. you know the conversations where you see a person, go up to them ask them how they are then either one of you makes an excuse to leave. i really miss conversations that have substance. conversations that stretch into the night, you know? hmmmm
yeah, so back to the storybook. they're called Alex and Rosie, and they're both so dumb!!! they've known each other since they were 5yrs old. they always pass notes and write letters to each other and stuff. and they're best friends. you know they say that guys and girls can never be only best friends in that sense. well, i kinda agree. rosie's dumb, nuff said. she doesn't realise all the signs that Alex gives off and in the end gets pregnant with some other guys baby. the babies named katie. then alex goes and marries somebody else, and rosie has to be the BEST WOMAN. then rosie gets married. alex and wife have a child, not long after divorce. then rosie divorces. along the way, alex wrote a letter of his declaration of his love but it gets lost. yeah. then alex marries somebody else and has another child. rosie's parents pass away and she inherits this house along the coast which she turns into this b&b. then finally alex confesses. at the end of the story they hook up. THE END.
gosh, how depressing is that i tell you. i read through the whole book and i felt like screaming in frustration at how dumb they were. admittedly, it really was a good and funny book. but they're both so dumb!!. so you know what, IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, TELL THEM. haha. thats the message loud and clear. sadly i can't take my advice cause i don't have the guts to tell that guy that i like him you know. saddddddd. but i'm getting over it. lots of ice-cream and chocolate helps. REALLY.


xoxo
joanna

P.S. all i need to do now is to keep repeating to myself he isn't worth it over and over again in my head until i'm absolutely convinced. hmmm, another thousand more times to go.