fakin it through...

totally empty...

haihz... i feel like the gas gauge thingy on the top... totally empty... im faking through my laughter and smiles nowadays... i just don't feel the familiar warmth when i laugh or giggle... i giggle for the sake of giggling... im laughing for the sake of not showing that im depressed to my friends... but i can't take it anymore... i need to tell it out... but i seriously do not know why im depressed... i guess its stress before exams gua... deno la... haihz...

joanna...

i hate studyin... i would really love to be allergic to studyin... haihz...

word of the day -

monocotyledons... (mo-no-co-tie-lei-dons)...

invented by - sue ann

'who is that girl i see, staring straight back at me, when will my refelction show who i am inside'

christina aguilera - reflection

(loving this song... )

define normal...

ok.. i've been thinking about this a lot... i mean wat else is there to think about?!... so what do you guys think about the word normal...
what i think is...
how can a person define normal... i mean there's unique and then there's normal... so whats in the middle?... nornique?... haha... every year there is a different standard to being normal... the right clothes... the right talk... the right walk... so what really is normal leh!?!?!?!... does that mean that normalcy changes from year to year according to the 'cool' people in school... like if they pierce their nose then its considered normal to pierce your nose too... and if they don't pierce their nose and you do then your considered weird?... i really don't see any sense in it...
haha... sorry if you guys don't understand what i'm talking about... please post what you guys think in my cbox though...

<3
joanna

the excitement is slipping away
the pressure has dissapeared
there is much more to say
but i hope none that i fear

i fear about everything
too little time or too much
to cringe or not to cringe
to touch or not to touch

to say or not to say
to do or not to do
but i pray and i pray
that it is not true

i want the past
and yet curious about the future
soon memories will become dust
and there will be no cure

haha... i kinda felt like rhyming so came up with this... if u guys don't get it... im trying to talk about the past and the future... im excited about the future and what it holds but i do not know how to act in it... and yet i cling to the past and its memories and hope that the moemories will not be forgotten... haha... hope u guys understand...

come on... nobody knows????

haihz... another hint

*its a series, not a movie*

*the famous word from it is 'doh' *

aikz... so dissapointed... haha... this series is reli reli reli popular and funny leeehh

<3

joanna

cravings

i crave for nasi lemak and teh ais now... even though i know its reli fattening and all... haha... actually i was gonna have nasi lemak already one... we went to buy at the roadside truck and then i went to the shop to buy the bangles... haha... (louise, don need to buy for me d... haha) so when we went off and came home, only we realised they forgot to give us the nasi lemak and curry puffs... haihzz... my mood like so sad now... like reli drastic mood swing... haha...
so today went to school and then stayed back with boey, sue ann, louise to study... in the end jin yee joined us also le... haha... but so funny how boey had to teach sue ann maths... it was reli a lot of fun but reli sien ya know... don't know why... i just have never really studied before in my whole entire life and then styudying makes me feel very trapped and bored... i have no idea why... haha... so it went on like that and i switched from doin maths to doin bm to studyin novel to studyin science... haha... cause i couldn't really concentrate on one thing le... and then at the end we were like askin each other sejarah questions, but i hadn't started studying sejarah yet... haha... so it was like, i would crap out some answer and sometimes get it right or boey would wait for me to answer and then quickly say out the answer... so i got about 5 or 6 marks lol... he got a lot a lot more than me though...

thanks for the bubblegum, briana!!!

<3
joanna...

failure...

ugh... abstaining is hard work la... so far i've only had to go through with it for two days and i'm already starving without the presence of meat filling up my belly... ughhhh
therefore, i've decided to change it a bit... haha
im gonna abstain from >>>
all tv programs except american idol and some ANTM
meat... not completely but most...
chocolate =.=
sweet stuff (sweets, drinks, loli's......)
pastries...(cake, buns and stuff, bread)

im still eating sookies but not so much though... haha!!!

<3
joanna...

abstain...

ok... since its the lent period and all... so im gonna abstain from a few things and you guys can help me so when i do something wrong u can pinch me or something... lol

im gonna abstain from >>>
chocolate =.=
sweet stuff (sweets, drinks, loli's......)
bread (haihz)
all tv programs except american idol and some ANTM
meat... not completely but most...
fried stuff which i totally love... like the long long one... haha!!!

thats basically it... sounds like a diet plan... =.=... haha... so from the 24th of Feb to erm... 40 days from today la... haha... i'll do a countdown shall i??

days left - 40 (today doesn't count)

saying of the day
always was, always am, always will
(does it make sense?)

P.S my left knee hurts like mad from tennis this morning la... haihzzz...

<3
joanna...

looks...

Hair:
[ ] straightener
[ ] curling iron
[ ] crimper
[ ] mousse
[x] scrunchies
[ ] hair spray
[ ] other sprays
[ ] bobby pins
[x] round barrel brush
[ ] blow dryer
[x] cream/other hair products
Total: 3

Eyes:
[ ] black eyeliner
[ ] other color eyeliner
[ ] eye shadow
[ ] mascara
[ ] fake eyelashes
[ ] eyelash curler
[ ] eye shimmer
[ ] colored contacts
[ ] shades
[ ] eye makeup remover
Total: 0

Lips/Teeth:
[ ] clear lip gloss
[ ] red or pink gloss
[ ] chapstick
[ ] lip plumper
[ ] mechanical toothbrush
[ ] teeth whitener
[ ] lip liner
[ ] whitening gum
[ ] had/has braces
[ ] more than 5 chapsticks
Total: 0

Complexion/Overall face:
[ ] blush
[ ] moisturizer
[ ] face wash
[ ] bronzer
[ ] makeup remover
[ ] face wipes
[ ] powder
Total: 0

Nails:
[x] nail polish
[ ] filer
[x] nail clipper
[ ] nail buffer
[ ] cuticle remover
[ ] nail hardener
[ ] nail brush
[ ] fake nails
[ ] nail scissors
Total: 2

TOTAL= 5

Now, add your score and multiply it by 2.

I AM 10% OBSESSED WITH MY LOOKS...

ok... thats weird... haha...

<3
joanna

mental age... xD

[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] I do my own laundry
[x] I can cook for myself
[ ] I think politics are exciting
[ ] My parents and grandparents have better things to say than my friends
Total: 2

[x] I show up for school/college/work every day early
[ ] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[x] I've never gotten a detention
[x] I've watched talk shows
[x] I know what credibility means without looking it up
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a week
Total: 4

[x] I know how to run the dish washerand or do the dishes.
[ ] I can count to 10 in Spanish.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water my plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college
[x] I remembered to feed my pets.
Total: 6

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said
[x] I can type fast
Total: 5

[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it
Total: 2

Now add up your totals and that's your mental age!!!

mental age... >>> 19 <<<

is that gud or bad?!?!?!

<3>
joanna

30 secrets...

1. Is that your natural hair colour
yuppp.

2. Where was your default pic taken?
i have no idea... haha

3. What's your middle name?
o.o... my confirmation name is marie lo...

4. Your current relationship status?
single and lovin it... <3

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
honestly, i have no idea but sure hope he does...

6. What is your current mood?
bored-ness...

7. what colour underwear are you wearing?
thats private la...

8. What makes you happy?
chocs... talking to ppl N frens...

9. Are you musically inclined?
define musically inclined...

10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would it be?
hmm... nth...

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
o.o... a cute cute doggie!

12. Ever had a near death experience?
yup... almost drowned when i was young...

13. Something you do a lot?
erm... breath, eat, sleep, complain of boredom...

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
none but currently listening to you had a bad day by daniel powter...

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
i have no idea... came from the internet... haha...

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
erm... har hou yan lo...

17. When was the last time you cried?
deno.. like last week?....

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
yup... primary std 3...

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
haha... telepathy...

20. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
their personality and looks mostly... but i judge based on personality...

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
i can't afford starbucks...

22. Whats your biggest secret?
jeez... its a secret la...

23. What's your favorite colour?
black and blue!

24. When was the last time you lied?
i deno... i dun keep track...

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
haha... of course... they're so funny...

26. Do you have braces?
nope...

27. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
of course i wanna b thin... haha...

28. what are you eating or drinking atm?
nothing... no food allowed in the study... >.<

29. Do you speak any other language?
erm... mandarin, bm, cantonese, tamil 1-10... haha...

30. What's your favourite smell?
don't really have one but i love the smell of vanilla...

<3
joanna...

guessin game...

where is this ground floor from?

*hints*

its from a starworld show

there is a dog and a cat in the show

tons of people love it

sorry guys, can't give you more clues... but if i give somemore then of course you guys will guess it so easily right... anywayz... the winner gets two jellybeans from me... haha... they're from aussie so they're huge and nice... haha... and if i feel good i might throw in some switzerland chocs too... haha...

<3

joanna...