2007-07-30

life is short... enjoy it...

i've just realised something... life is so so so short le...
imagine...
10 minutes in one hour is already 1/6 of an hour
10 hours in one day is already 41.4% of one day
aiya... forget the statistics... just think of it this way... on average, you take at least 2-3 hours to eat... 8 hours to sleep... 1-2 hours getting dressed... 1-2 hours on the road... 6-7 hours in school... so how much time do you have left a day? ( on a weekday)
about... 4-5 hours left a day... surprising right? i was quite surprised too when i did the math... but its actually quite refreshing thinking about it... thinking about what i usually do in those few precious hours... and thinking that i've wasted my time on mindless things...
almost half of this year is gone... and the other half is going fast too... while we go on with our busy lives... i cant help thinking... what have i done today that was meaningful? what have i done today for a friend or even an enemy?...
i know the answer to that for myself... but what about the rest of you?... just think about that when you spend hours siting in front of the tv or playing endless games...

xoxo
joanna

so baby, i will wait for you... elliot yamin

2007-07-26

single guys...

i was watching Oprah after school today, and guess what todays topic was...

*drumroll*

love...

lol... i think Oprah loves to talk about love la... this time it was how to stay in a relationship and stuff like that... so what i learned from watching it was...
- you gotta feel good about yourself to be able to stay in a relationship
- you gotta give out the good vibes to get good guys... haha... you know what i mean right...
- you gotta be positive just think of life in a more positive way

haha... it was kinda funny at the end... cause Oprah says that too many women cmplain they cant find the perfect guy... so Oprah and her 'team' looked for tons of single men... lol... they're all available at Oprah.com... haha...

i don't know why im feeling depressed today la... haihz... i guess im just depressed that the guy i like is like off limits la... in the sense that its a one-sided like relationship... u get what i mean right... why can't the perfect guy exist leh?
a guy who is always there for you... worries about you 24/7... always knows the right things to say at the right times... a guy who can still be there for you even though he has left this face of the earth... just a guy that you can always get along with and your family can get along with too... a guy who has the guts to say i like you instead of hide behind his friends...

lol.. i expect too much in life i guess... haha...

'i want you to want me' elvis castello (why can't life be as simple as an old retro pop song)

xoxo
joanna...

2007-07-16

dissapointing...

haha... i haven't updated for damn long d (according to my standards la)
well, these are the highlights of the things that have happened lately...

my birthday passed, i love and thanks everybody!!! haha. i got like tons of presents and am really grateful. i'll post pics of them later la... haha too lazy now le.

family day was last sunday. it was fun. haha. started off giving weidly shaped balloons to lil' kids. and then debbie and louise found me so we went around. all three of us did the henna thingy. haha. i hope it'll last for a longer time. haha. i ate like damn lot of food le. =.=. i bought some stuff too. haha. hmmm, thats about it i think.

i stayed overnight at church from friday to saturday le. like until 4 am in the morning. haha. pretty cool. damn lotta people came to gove testimonies and stuff. i saw pointblanc and the nikki girl from malaysian idol!!!! so totally cool. haha. they're catholics by the way thats why they came to give testimonies le. and then since the world youth day is being held in sydney this yr, the organisers decided to teac us some australian slang. haha. so now my bro is going around trying to immintate an australian. haha.

the whole week was pretty boring actually. damn lotta relief le. so can sleep/study. haha. butsince i cant sleep in class for some strange reason, i ended uo studyin form 1 science. haha. a bit pathetic right, but whatever.

PMR is in like 76 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sshhhhhheeeetttttttt...

xoxo
joanna

2007-07-06

muscles...

btw... i was talking with a few people who have the same opinion about this...

guys with reli reli reli huge muscles are ugly! lol... one example is how arnold used to be... as in the guy form terminator... haha

xoxo
joanna

embarassed...

haihz... i don't know why i've been feeling so emo lately... well... except for today la... today i was so hyper i did things which i regret later (refer to the title)... my results sucked by the way... i passed all my subs la... but there are so many bad marks that i really regret not studying over... haihz... PMR is like in 3 more months and i cant believe im still blogging away, onlining till late at night and having afternoon naps... its not that im not worried... of course i am... its just that i've lost the will power and concentration to sit down and stare aimlessly at the revision books... everytime i open one, i end up thinking and thinking... so i've kinda given up...
come to think of it, i've given up on almost everything in life... lol... im thinking again... haha...
i've given up on some of my friends...
i've given up on all my ambitions...
i've given up on love...
i've even given up on myself...
maybe thats why i love to read romance novels... cause everything turns out right in the end... there is never a story book that doesn end happily... come to think of it... everything always goes right in the end... even if one of the characters die, somebody else will go in turn to replace that character... and at the end ' and they all lived happily ever after'... its getting kinda depressin to read story books like that actually... everything always turns out right for them in the end... hmmm... i think im going mad... im actually comparing myself to fictional characters... haha...
well, for those who don't know what i've been talking about from the top... basically i feel damn emo and lonely le... its not that i don have people beside me to help me through life... i have tons of them... its just that well... theres always the time when ur sitting alone in class and wondering what happened to all my friends... or the time when your walking out alone after school wondering where everybody is... its not only that... evrybody has people by their side bad mouthing them... we just don't know it or we are vaguely aware of it... yet we can't do anything... we can only watch them as they do what they are best at doing... back stabbing people... haihz... why can't we just have the power to read each others minds and know what they are thinking instead of going through the process of hurt and tears...

haihz.... this post so emo la... =.=...

on to happier notes... i think im gonna watch transformers la... yeah!... lol... im waitin for harry potter though... my birthday is coming up to... and people pls... stop asking me what i want... haha... cause i seriously do not know le... haha...

P/S... i can't believe that im staying up every night just to wait for that guy to come online... lol... i feel like a stalker... haha... (im not revealing the identity of the guy... its for me and my close friends to know and for the rest of you to find out)... lmao!!!

xoxo
JoAnNa..

im starting to feel hyper again... haha... so random...

2007-07-05

augustana - boston

In the light of the sun,
Is there anyone?
Oh it has begun.
Oh dear, you look so lost,
eyes are red
and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed.
You said,

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.
yeah.

Essential yet appealed,
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field,
When flowers gaze at you,
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you
You said,

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain.
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,

Boston, where no one knows my name
where no one knows my name
where no one knows my name

Boston, where no one knows my name.

this is my new favourite song... lol... it's quite nice le... haha

<3
joanna